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To hit before May 2010

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 08:58:40 -0800

Buffalo once more for the brother

DC - Sharmin/Wei Loon/Joey if he's still around

Boston - Edy? Sherry? Who lives there?

Florida to see Wendy

NYC - Will, Dahlia, Devidas, MSF?

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I hope no one at work has access to this

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 09:06:53 -0700

I think i will roll off permanently after i am done with this project.

1 year stint doing ministry of some sort else where + more

Go back to school

See how it goes.

Holy cow i am actually quite excited.

Prayers please!

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Lately

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 08:07:57 -0700

The desire to be somewhere else is back again.

Jean recommended i pursue the calling i've been having for years now.

I wonder if there is a right time for it.

Quit my job, screw immigration status and just go somewhere unknown and do something unbelievable.

Ah, cest la vie

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Break and fix

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 22:51:19 -0700

Met Jean yesterday and she told me I like to keep things moving and I
like to get out of the bad phases I'm in quickly. Sometimes, too
quickly.

In some ways it is true, once I find that resolution or some point of
epiphany or logic its like a switch that just gets turned on or off.
Which is kinda scary.

Maybe it is time to sit a bit in here and find solace in him. I don't
know. But peace os awesome. It glides in like a fog and calms you :)

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I love rain

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 19:42:00 -0700

Like rain come down

He washes away our sins

It just reminds me of a cleansing of the earth :)

And the pitter patter is kinda soothing

More importantly, it reminds me of home.

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Out of sight

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 15:08:08 -0700

Out of mind.

Not as easy as one might think.

Sometimes absence makes the heart grow fonder.

And i wish i can employ out of sight out of mind much better right now.

In any case will be:

- Buying a piano

- Picking up Rock Climbing again in St Louis!

- Reading

- Dancing - maybe i'll take a class in Chicago?

AH, feel so nomadic.

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I am the email monster

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 15:01:00 -0700

i am churning through my email much faster than anyone else i know. lol

Sigh. i think i have too much time in my hands.

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Best words heard today

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 13:00:35 -0700

He's either a or b, neither of which are worth your time and effort.

Sometimes, some people are just not worth it I guess.

Thanks for good word, Jason!

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In retrospect

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 13:54:02 -0700

I am more loved than i care to think

I am more appreciated than i seem to remember

I am more cared for than most i know

And yet I seek

I seek for more but i forget that i have been given much

I thank God for being with me since i was a child

And yet i forget Him when my selfishness came knocking on the door

I pray that I'll always remember this

He cares, loves, appreciates me more than any man can

And i know that I may not see, feel or hear him at all times

but He still

cares, loves and appreciates me more than any man could/will.

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Escape

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 14:46:25 -0700

This summer is almost like my "Do Everything before you..." summer for me.

I feel like i'm trying to achieve as many 'recreational','relationshpi building', 'relationship sustaining' goals before i ride off into the sunset doing something or going somewhere.

It's so weird. I have an idea what my next phase is going to look like.. I kinda have a plan in mind. But i feel like i'm stuck in the here and now constantly dreaming of the future when i can be in the next phase i want to be in already.

Sometimes i wish i didn't look so far ahead or think so much about before, now and after.

Why can't i just be blissfully ignorant?

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So

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 06:36:21 -0700

Here we are again

back in the saddle again

Trying to break out this cycle

of repeating our mistakes

It's weird how history keeps showing us that we continuously make the same mistakes in humanity

love, war, ravaging our resources, not appreciating what we have, not saying the things we should have said or doing the things we should not have done

Sometimes we break free of the cycle and we reach another level of other things we try to avoid doing, or try to be better at.

i guess it's a continuous learning experience - like a game, you break the cycle and pass one level, then you move on to the next...and the next...and the next

and the game is not over until you kick the bucket

you know, i'm really looking forward to meeting you, God. Sometimes the act of breaking the cycle, and trying to fulfill my primary calling just gets tiring.

my heart is tired.

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Going so fast I want to stop

Thu, 09 Jul 2009 22:46:30 -0700

Work
Weekend
Work
Family
Out with friends
Work
Chores

I'd like to stop and see You please.

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Day 1 in NYC

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 08:43:46 -0700

Breakfast: Chicken rice from Quick Delight (Former chef of Russian tea room)

The food:

Rice with Chicken Shwarma, salad and i believe tzaizitki sauce?

Chicken was tasty and tender, well flavoured.

The rice was long grain, well cooked and well flavoured as well from the chicken.

The salad was usual and the sauce for it was yum.

Overall i was very satisfied for the $5.50 i spent on it.

BUt more importantly, the chef started chatting me up while the other guy was cooking my meal and after telling him i'm malaysian chinese, he started serenading me a Chinese song! Incredible. Mainly because he is of I believe Indian decent.

I was reading Soul Craving and it states, once you start reading the bible, it kinda opens up your sense to the world. Today, i smelt, tasted, heard and felt some kind of awesomeness. :)

Thank you, God!

I'm sure more fun is to come. And i am excited.

Word.

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There's gotta be a way to look forward to going to work

Sun, 21 Jun 2009 21:48:03 -0700

I need to find that silver lining soon!!

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Stable!

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 14:36:37 -0700

So lately I have become infatuated with another guy...I know what else
is new right? The one thing that drives me nuts about this stage is -
me! I get so emotionally caught up with all the yes and no answers
that I get from him and I overanalyze every word that was said and
every move that was made... Man it's bad.

Why are women built this way??

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Heart full of love

Sun, 14 Jun 2009 16:28:43 -0700

It's pretty amazing to feel that way.

To have a thought and just can't stop smiling.

To look around with gratitude.

To be able to be cheerful and vulnerable.

To be innocent.

To let go of your sin.

To look at kids and laugh along.

To hear the birds chirp.

To have so much that you want to keep giving it away and channeling it outward.

To just be light footed and light hearted.

Tee Hee.

Thank you God!

Amen.

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New Job, New place, a lot of new-ness lately

Fri, 12 Jun 2009 13:57:14 -0700

Job:

Is good so far. It is different and like all jobs, we love it and we also notice things that make us go 'huh?'.

In any case, i love it because:

- I am more flexible with my time, i think?

- Very smart people that i get to work with (Kind too)

- There is a more adhesive common goal (Passion and the desire to go public)

- Small enough that I can actually give me opinion and someone listens!

Michael Kong told me I might end up becoming a serial start up person - Haha - Who knows? I wondered that myself when i first started.

New Place aka Aldine Lookout:

- I have had 1 dinner for the mover friends and i am loving it!

So far, all the boxes have been unpacked, i still have more decorating to do - i assume this will be a year long project. :)

I am so excited to have people over. Now i just have to be home more to enjoy my place.

New-ness

With life, it's like i'm out of the fire and i feel better about what happened. One chapter closed and the next one is equally as exciting as the previous - so much to say but not sure if i'll ever find the right words. I am really thankful that He pulled me out, put me in the fire and set me back here in Chicago. Who knows what would have happened if i didn't get the offer. Things are definitely looking good otherwise. :)

Praise for:

Community that i'm starting to grow to love in my neighborhood.

Family who still bugs me. :P

Work - challenging but at least i have a job!

Pray for:

Relationships and patience.

Rest and quiet time.

Guarding my tongue so as to speak truth in love, not out of my selfishness.

I'll try to post pictures soon. Still trying to set up my gadgets here..

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Growing roots in Chicago

Sun, 24 May 2009 21:32:59 -0700

My awesome weekend started with a text message on Saturday, which led to me biking out of my apt (away from work) to Montrose Beach, watching a live soccer game (which seemed pretty serious), and meeting up with Jon K for some quiet time on the beach.

We watched people, water, clouds, seagulls.. fun stuff.

Funny quote from Jon: "I wish i can tell someone that i saw a shape and sworn it looked like a cloud!". :D

Then we met up with the hub group folks, played beach volleyball, kayaked the lake (which was actually not bad), talked quite a bit, and then i hit the hub group meeting later on.

Dinner was great - it was Jared's birthday and we had Italian at Soprano's which was yummeee :D
The best part was the live music played by the band (who sang a lot of good oldies, especially Sinatra).. And we got them to serenade Jared while he was served a really yummy Tiramisu. :)

Today was church, then lunch at Bennigans (surprisingly good) - sitting outside and enjoying yum food and fun conversation (video games! beach! etc). Then off home to fold my laundry and a 2 hr nap, and back again to the Man House for some Rock Band. :) I was a bit rusty....

Dinner at Buffalo Joe's in Evanston.

This weekend has been activity-filled! Now some quiet time for me.

One thing i realised lately is how i seem to be absorbing all the things that are going on around me and how i've become more aware of everything (smells, sounds, emotions from other people etc) - and i'm still trying to figure out how to channel it appropriately..

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What i learnt from Rachel today

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 21:26:54 -0700

God is not a confusing God.

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This is from a book that Fine gave me a while ago

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 08:41:13 -0700

And it's so relevant to what's going on right now:

Faith is trusting
What the eyes can't see
Eyes see the prowling lion,
Faith sees Daniel's angels.
Eyes see storms,
Faith sees Canaan.
Your eyes see your faults,
Your faith sees your Savior.
Your eyes see your guilt,
Your faith sees His blood.
Your eyes see your blood,
Your faith sees a city whose builder and maker is God.
Your eyes look in the mirror and see a sinner, a failure, a promise-breaker.
But by faith, you look in the mirror
and see a robed prodigal bearing the ring of
grace on your finger and the kiss of
your Father on your face.

- Safe in the Shepherd's Arms by Max Lucado

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