jinsheen's posterous

Sinus here, Sinus there

One thing i noticed, and i realised i missed about being in Asia - my nose is fine!

I realised that once i came back to St Louis/Chicago, my nose/sinus started acting up and i would have all these Cold/Flu symptoms.
 
Maybe it's the cold..maybe it's something in my apt/work in st louis.
Eitherways, I really hate feeling so sick. Ugh.

Lately

The desire to be somewhere else is back again.
 
Jean recommended i pursue the calling i've been having for years now.
I wonder if there is a right time for it.
 
Quit my job, screw immigration status and just go somewhere unknown and do something unbelievable.
 
Ah, cest la vie

Break and fix

Met Jean yesterday and she told me I like to keep things moving and I
like to get out of the bad phases I'm in quickly. Sometimes, too
quickly.

In some ways it is true, once I find that resolution or some point of
epiphany or logic its like a switch that just gets turned on or off.
Which is kinda scary.

Maybe it is time to sit a bit in here and find solace in him. I don't
know. But peace os awesome. It glides in like a fog and calms you :)

Out of sight

Out of mind. 

Not as easy as one might think. 

Sometimes absence makes the heart grow fonder. 

And i wish i can employ out of sight out of mind much better right now. 

In any case will be: 

- Buying a piano
- Picking up Rock Climbing again in St Louis!
- Reading
- Dancing - maybe i'll take a class in Chicago? 

AH, feel so nomadic. 

In retrospect

I am more loved than i care to think
I am more appreciated than i seem to remember
I am more cared for than most i know
And yet I seek
I seek for more but i forget that i have been given much
I thank God for being with me since i was a child
And yet i forget Him when my selfishness came knocking on the door
I pray that I'll always remember this
He cares, loves, appreciates me more than any man can
And i know that I may not see, feel or hear him at all times
but He still
cares, loves and appreciates me more than any man could/will.